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Tuesday, June 6th, 2006

Time:1:07 pm.

man yesterday was fun. wimberly with kat and kat=mucho fun.
today stupid acc..i got a 74 on my first test. curse conor for his stupid 94. oh well i did better tehn some people though.

How many?.

Monday, June 5th, 2006

Time:10:52 pm.
stefan is sweet. he sings me songs. too bad he is gone at camp. thats a shame. 
today was mucho fun. went out to wimberly with kat and kat... drnak some jack... smoked some and swam.... i had fun. i love them both. 
i will post pics later.
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Saturday, June 3rd, 2006

Time:9:13 pm.
Mood: loved.
shall we bring this bitch back up!

im just doing this cause i have nothing better to do this summer then to write in this again. well....
as far as i am conserned this summer is pretty good so far.
i have kept busy...keepping my mind off of certain people and things...
im thinking stefan is a douche right now...but i might have kinda set him up with one of those questions where its like im looking for a certain answer but i lead him in the wrong directions with the answers...well im a meanie like that. i dunno. but i really do like him thats why this kinda sucks a ball.
ok well today meredith came in town... YAY! and yeah i went to sunnys to see her and we jsut kinda sat around and chilled like old times and me mere and sunny and hooks went to el storeo....



well  yeah and kat and kat and i went to the store later and got some stuff to go to wimberly on MONDAY its the girls day at the river...all alone... its going to rock my socks off I LOVE THEM TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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Tuesday, July 12th, 2005

Time:9:42 pm.
wow i love aric so much he is the coolest person in the world. he is all i think about and is just amazing. he is the bestest person in teh whole wide world. he is soo much bettter than anyone i know.
I LOVE YOU ARIC!!!!!!!
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Monday, July 11th, 2005

Time:3:08 pm.
Mood: calm.
Everything is all good now. yeah yesterday i went and saw Fantastic Four with Aric. it was lots of fun. well umm i leave for colorado in 4 days. i have nothing else really to say.

I Love Aric!!
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Saturday, July 9th, 2005

Time:11:08 pm.
he said it would never happen
it did
i feel horrible
i feel like everything since then was a lie
this sucks
i keep crying and i try to think of something else but its the only thing i can think of
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Friday, July 8th, 2005

Time:12:11 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
yay Aric might be coming over today. its been like a week since i have seen him cause im not counting tuesday cause that just didnt count. i love love love love him.
i hate my mom. she always has to make everything so difficult.
man i still have to do so many things. pack...ummm yeah thats pretty much it actually okay umm oh and i have to go get my bubble pipe turned into pot pipe by aric out from the side of the house and it rained yesterday so its prolly all wet now. damn. o well.
yay! I might get to see aric today. i love him so much. sorry im not obsessed. damnit im missing JS.
oh and i love Kathryn N. Warped tour kicked ass.
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Friday, June 17th, 2005

Time:10:01 am.
i feel fat.
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Thursday, June 16th, 2005

Subject:How do you like dem apples?
Time:12:08 am.
Mood: loved.
okay umm havent updated in FOREVER but i dunno. i have just been hangin out with people mostly Aric. I love him so much. I'm really glad we both came clean on that whole thing.
well mere is back in town and that makes me happy.but shes leavin in like a 2 days to florida...which stinks hardcore.
well im making an awesome purse which is gunna turn out awesome. i hope.

sorry the layout it so ugly im trying to fix it... i let mere try to work on it and she managed to turn it into a piece of shit and so now i gotta go fix it all...or whatever. well o well.

im gunna post more i guess sometime.
How many?.

Wednesday, May 25th, 2005

Subject:sometimes when youre all alone and all you do is think
Time:10:42 pm.
so last day of school was today. yay i guess. i dunno i dont think i am as excited about ti as everyone else is. it just doesnt seem different in anyway.i dunno. is it supposed to? well anyways this is what i know so far with my finals and such
geography: 98
spanish: not so good cause all the mexicans kept talking and nunez told us to bring pens...but that the hell scantrons shit pens dont work so i wasted half my time trying to get a pencil
english: on the play i got an 89 and written part not so sure yikes!
BAnd: im pretty sure i aced it
chem: lab practical i got a 41/50 and so i only needed a 12 on the written to pass teh semester with a 70
geometry: im thinkin i did pretty good on that too

well my rash is pretty much gone...that med stuff made me break out like crazy and so i stopped takin it and then the rash it kinda coming back around my eyes and it burns like crazy. yeah today mrs thiessen thought i was on some kinda of drug cause my eyes were red and poofy and watery and "druggie". yeah but eh i dunno.

today i went to TC with my sis and then went over to arics and hung out with him a bit and went to his doctors appointment and it was all cool and stuff. yeah i really like hangin out with him. i love him soooo much!

yeah ummm mandi i gt beat up at school thats it!
2 Died from heat.// How many?.

Sunday, April 24th, 2005

Time:9:55 pm.
why is he all i can think about? all day he is running through my mind.i just wish he knew that i DO care and that is all that i have been doing. it might be hard to tell but thats just my way of doing it. i love hanging out with him. i love talking to him. i love his jokes. i love his voice. i love so much about him i just wish he knew. i want him to know. i just wish that i dont fuck things up. i have already fucked up sooo many times i just dont want to fuck it up sooo bad that he never wants to talk to me again. I thought of what would happen and i dont think things would be the same if it did. i have soo many things that i could apoligize for and have apoligized for. i wish everything was back to the way things were before last tuesday. i wish i was 5 minutes earlier. i hope thrusday put a little more trust in me. even thoguh hes probably not gunna read this. i just wish he knew.
2 Died from heat.// How many?.

Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005

Time:5:33 pm.
i would like to go back to sunday. haha that was the closest i have been to getting arrested without actually getting arrested. but it was awesome. haha. im never speeding down slaughter again. i swear. but johns new car is pretty pimp. haha and he mom threatened to "kick my ass" if i ever go over to his house again. lol. good times. his mom is physco!!!!! seriously.
and blah my mom found my pipe. ooppps.but i need a new one now!
and whatever Jorge, Kitoma, brandon, pablo, or doug tell you they are lying about it....and if one more person comes up to me and says they have two dollars i will seriously kick their fucking nads. shit. it gets annoying. like somehow it changed from the oringal 1 guy 18 time to 18 guys 3 times each and discounted in one day. hahah i hate them!!!
4 Died from heat.// How many?.

Friday, March 18th, 2005

Time:12:02 am.
Mood:happy cause today rocked!.
yeah so spring break is still goin good so far. only like 3 days left. eh tuesday i went over to arics and hung out with him, walked around, and other stuff. yeah then yesterday i sat around with mere and played payday for like 2 hours and then we played pretty pretty princess which is only the best game ever. yeah and then amin, and val came over and watched the ring with me and my sis cause tomorrow we are goin to see the ring 2. yeah eyah. and ummm at like 3 this morning val was messin round with my phone and called a bunch of people in my phone book so if you got a message that says that im madly in love with you and i wanna hook up with you....yeah thats from valerie.ahh pablo even called back and was like blah blah all this shit and now i feel really bad about it cause i dont want to hurt his feelings or anything so i still havent told him that im not madly in love with him and i ignore his phone calls. well anyways today i worked at the jinx house for the morning part and then i went to arics house for awhile. it was alot of fun. we should definately do that again.
1 Died from heat.// How many?.

Monday, March 14th, 2005

Time:8:27 pm.
Mood: tired.
eh okay from last friday

friday: the last day of school or at least for spring break and sutff, it was cool. after school i went to merediths hhouse then went to blakes party which was alot of fun and i got to chill with alot of people i havent seen in forever

Saturday: i went to the rodeo with Kat and i threw up YAY! another public puking incident...thats all i need.. well then it was a series of firsts for me. i went to eat with kat at Maudies..its was goood. i had never been there before. and yeah i spent the night at her grandparents hosue and they are really cool...im kinda jelious of their relationship. i wish my relationship with my grandparents were as good. unforunately my problem is that one pair hates my family cause we "cause problems" and my other grandma lives to far away and i only see her like once a year...needless to say no relationship there

sunday: kats gramps took us to breakfast another first for me. la ferria...good place too. well then we went to barton springs and changed in the middle of it..good thing there werent a ton of people there like in the summer. then went to the kite festival..ahh soo many kites. well then my sis picked me up and we got amin and his brother and went back to the kite festival and met creighton and annie and angie and mario and hung out there and matinee tried to flip me and dropped me..ouch. yeah and ummm then i went over to sunnys house and fell asleep yeah she thought i was sick or something and so i woke up and she had stuck a thermometer in my mouth...awkward

Monday(today): all day i worked at the jinx house...painting...scrubbing....cutting trees....hauling branches....cleaning brushes...gardening.... digging a trench... all im tired

tomorrow im planning on goin over to my dads work and helping him and maybe hang out with aric... i was goin to today but he called to late...yeah thats his fault. poor little elvis.
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Wednesday, March 9th, 2005

Subject:i woke up wishing i didnt
Time:10:39 pm.
Mood: blank.
i was so proud of myself cause my poem in english wasn't all sappy and depressing. I could tell i was in a good mood when i wrote it. come on it had a princess in it and everything. but yeah it wasnt as good as most of my stuff that i write but at least it didnt show who i really am...actually it kinda did but in a less morbid way. at least it wasnt like my poem for the end of 8th grade thing/book with the person killing themself...it was good but im glad i chose a different poem to read to the class. my favorite poem was dougs cause somehow i felt like i could connect with it. i talked to him in chem and he seemed down. but yeah i liked it alot even though it lacked the symbolism we were supposed to have.

i got to see Kat today. it made me happy.




i am nothing but a brick
i sink into the water
drowning gasping for air
drowning in my own hate and fears
drowning in my own ugliness and distaste
i am the one brick no one wants to pick up
i am nothing but a brick
i fall from buildings
falling at 1000 miles per hour
falling into nothingness
falling into the lonliness that now surrounds me
i am the one brick no one wants to catch.
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Wednesday, January 19th, 2005

Time:11:13 pm.

oooo i have sum more!!!actually not htat many more

 

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Time:10:37 pm.
Mood: PLURRRRR.

 

 

ryans toy porn??!!!???

ryans "porn" yet again

rachel and John

haha i love that girl shes my favorite

haha its mere when she had pink hair....and her fucked up cat

its mah cuz allison

kendal is one hot bitch!!

I did her hair myself

oh man we had some fun with that thing...haha good times

hahah her boobs and  one of her rainbow brite dolls...

she jumped it...but didnt quite make it...ahhh good itmes

 

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Tuesday, January 18th, 2005

Time:11:09 pm.
okay dude today my mom was like i dont understand why people steal and i thought about it for like 2 seconds and i just blurted out whatever could come to mind and my mom was like "well i see what youre saying" and was like damn straight. see i was like well its a way of life. everyone steals. hell even elements steal. see like in chemistry when certian elements steal electrons from other elements...yes everything revolves around the elements..thus the world revolves around stealing and theifery wait is that a word. shit i dont care.
2 Died from heat.// How many?.

Subject:I HAVE A SMALL PENIS!?!?!?
Time:10:58 pm.
Mood: awake.
okay today was cool. me and kitoma switched shoes the whole day and he tried to sell my shoes to this black chick woah yeah but ummm we had a soccer game vs. travis AND WE LOST!!! 0-2 yeah how horrible is that!!!!! haha at least it didnt count in our district games.
does anyone else notice that during lunch we always end up throwing food at each other? and its usually harrisons or nicks or wesleys that we throw. i find it odd.
How many?.

Sunday, January 16th, 2005

Time:9:47 pm.

wow i have a bunch of pictures i just never decided to post...thats what the majority of my most recent entries are now.  yeah i will jsut do them little by little.

 

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